Turning

It's been a while since I've posted. Life has settled into a new rhythm, and so far, so good. I met with the dietician and discussed the problems I've been having getting back into full fasting mode.

We decided together that perhaps full fast was not right for me, at this time. So, I have a new plan. That's what life is all about isn't it-- changing plans?

So, for now, my plan is this: 3-4 Optifast shakes during the day, and for an evening meal, I get this balanced food plan:
1-2 cups raw vegetables (salad, or mixed raw veggies)
6-8 oz protein-- I know, that's a lot- but protein contributes greatly to satiety
1-2 c cooked vegetable
1 starch serving (1/2 potato, rice, or bread)
1 fruit serving (1 c)
1 c non fat milk
1 fat exchange

This is a lot of food, friends! But-- I'm losing weight on this plan! 2 pounds the first week, and 3 1/2 pounds the second. And, I'm happier! No more stress and guilt about not staying on full liquids.

I'm learning as well, to let go of the anger about JD's drinking. He continues to drink, and I let him know that I know about it, but I can feel the change in my response. I don't get that 'tight guts', racing pulse feeling anymore. And that's the blessing.